Beberapa hari ini langit di-setting mellow. You cannot tell what time it is just by looking out of the window, because it will be cool and dark all day. Not that I'm complaining.
It's a perfect day to take it easy and lay back. Like what i've been doing for the last 6 months or so.
Cuma ada satu eh dua hal yang membuat agak sedih, yaitu I missed my chemo cycle and my back and chest is hurt, both thanks to the zooster virus. Hopefully it;s just a minor setback, and hopefully we can have the chemo as soon as i see my onc next tuesday. I can't believe I will be so sad to miss a chemo, but my onc said that the delay should not be a problem if it;s only a week or so.
But at the end of the consultation he seemed hesitated (or maybe it;s just his style, that seemingly hesitated speech) and said that even if i will still have some of my shingles, but if he think that my body can take it, he will push ahead with the chemo. He also mentioned something about the risk of some of the lumps to comeback if we delay it for too long. So I don't know if i should be worry or not, but I know that I should pray. A lot.
Sebetulnya sebelum huru-hara herpes ini, rencananya mau meneruskan cerita soal diagnosis, pemasangan selang, jantung hampir jebol, kejar-kejaran dengan dokter onkologi, mini-kemo, sampai kemo perdana yang nggak lengkap komponennya itu. But 5 days fever followed by pain and discomfort ruined my mood.
Jadi ceritanya musti nunggu mood kembali dulu deh.
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